myself and everything else

My day, my dreams, and a few other things.

A new day…

Going through pictures on my computer, I found this photo from this past September, once again a beautiful sunset from my backyard.  A little behind I am with the things I enjoy doing, the craziness of another year that has gone by with new employment for me and hopes of trying to find a way back to doing the things I want: family, nature, photographs, writing, travel and loving life.

Sunsets colors so enchanting they hold me in constant daydreams until darkness arrives.

Backyard sunset.


January 11, 2017 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

To be a Jack Russell…


I want to be a Jack Russell,  I want to run around, leaping through the air.

I want to have energy to play,  I want to have energy to live a full day,  not just enough energy to complete my day.

Please, can I be what I want to be?

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June 11, 2016 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a Comment


Sometimes on the way home from work I let out a big sigh and wonder why I do what I do for a living.

I have learned so much working in healthcare but the biggest problem is that I have learned too much. Daily I struggle with the plans that are made for patients by a few doctors who spend so little time with them, doctors who can alter their patients very existence of daily life. Why do patients feel they have to agree with a physician’s plan of care while in the hospital like they don’t have a choice but once discharged home they do what they really wanted to do all along, go home, stop all treatments and live in peace for the rest of their days.   Not all doctors but there are a few who seem to truly intimidate patients and their families, by giving options but not really giving a choice,  are these treatment plans recommended for their patients best interest or for physician glory, money??????

I sit here, sigh and truly don’t understand why.


May 18, 2016 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

Nature’s song….

Something little I wrote, I was inspired by our trip to Rocky Mountain National Park.


mother natures song correct


May 9, 2016 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

Colors in the sky…

Never can say enough about colors in the sky.  My days are so busy full of stress and when I come home I forget to look out my westward windows.  This day not to long ago, I noticed the brilliant oranges, pinks mixed with some gray.  I grabbed my camera and ran outside to take a few pictures of the constantly changing sky, then sat my camera down to watch the sunset in the western sky with my own two eyes. It always amazes me how colors in the sky can heal the heart and take away the stress of the day.



March 4, 2016 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

3 years…

So I have been working as a RN case manager for 3 years. Working as a case manager was a big change from ER nursing but still very stressful.

I believe I have let the demons of healthcare take over my thoughts again, the sadness of people who spend so much time in the hospital sick and their stories have taken a lot from me. I know hospitals are for sick people and it does amaze me at times what can be done to help patients through some big medical event so they can get back to living life. I see so many patients on a daily basis whose life of living is admission after admission to the hospital, some hoping their breathing will some how get better and not need more liters of home oxygen or that their hearts will pump stronger and not let their bodies fill up with fluid. Every week seeing familiar faces, worried families wanting to know why we can’t fix them, some patients don’t have families and hope for just a year or two more of maintaining some sort of independence, their stories have clouded my thoughts at night.

Yes, being a case manager has been a challenge, I am a strong patient advocate I will stand up for what is right. I just wish everyone else would do the same.


March 1, 2016 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a Comment


mind too tired

when evening falls

blurry vision through eyelids which can’t make peace

waiting for daylights glow to sleep



February 25, 2016 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

The Plains, the plains!!!

This summer my husband and I traveled to Colorado.  I have written and dreamed of mountains my entire life and now I was going to finally see them.  Words cannot describe Colorado, the wonderful drive through Rocky Mountain National Park, the hiking, fly fishing, sleeping in a sweet little cottage next to a river, I am forever changed.

We drove I-70 from Indiana to Colorado, It was a long drive and I was so full of excitement, reading highway exit signs of town names along the highway sent my imagination into a spin of what life was like way back then, all those old wild west towns I remember from movies, books, names on highway signs passing me by at 75 mph; Salina, Abilene, Hays, Dodge City, Burlington.  Before our trip several people told us that the drive on I-70  is horrible, boring and we should fly to Colorado.  I found the views breathtaking off I-70,  so vast the flat lands and rolling hills, scattered with ranches and thousands of cattle in pastures grazing tall grasses and all the old lovely barns that were barely standing.   This drive was so important and I tell everyone with great excitement how I enjoyed my drive on I-70 and all the beauty there is to see.

The Great Plains led me to the mountains and touched my soul.




December 17, 2015 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

Something about my Mozzie dog makes me smile, she always sticks out her tongue. I found her standing on the side of a rural road when she was a pup about 2 1/2 years ago, I knew she had been dumped, she was very afraid and hungry at first but ready to be loved. Mozzie has grown into a fine loving dog who protects her home with a loud deep bark and is always ready to play.
I love my Mozzie.



March 24, 2015 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a Comment


It’s March and thinking of flowers from last year, how I missed them so.

Today in my part of Indiana the sun was shining and temps reached 63 degrees, I could smell the spring in the air.

Now to wait patiently for colors of green, pink and yellow.



March 11, 2015 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

Little yellow flower…

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Sometimes life can be so beautiful it amazes me.

Flowers in spring come to life to remind us we are getting closer to the end, little yellow flower reminds us to live.


December 22, 2014 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

Midnight Sun…


Smokey night with dreams, thoughts of stillness, forever.    Moonbeams shining the way, comforting to sleep.


Midnight Sun...


June 20, 2014 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a Comment



Large lake with waves

takes my breath away

tears fill my eyes for you have inspired me

to grasp life,  to feel alive.

Thank You

Lovely Lake Michigan
Lovely Lake Michigan

July 8, 2013 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

Dream for a day…


To sleep at night is to dream for the day

for only wishes and wants can’t go away

for the night my dreams fade to colors

for daylight my dreams fade the reality


March 6, 2013 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

A new toy…

Nothing like getting a new toy.   Let me rephrase that,  nothing like an adult getting a new toy.

Yes, I bought me a new toy,  a lovely Canon Rebel EOS Rebel T3i, not sure what the T3i stands for but it is so cool.  I have always enjoyed taking pictures, it brings me joy.   I started out many years ago with a basic little 35mm, then a small digital camera, then a few years ago a more advanced point and shoot digital camera.   Now I have the big daddy a true d-SLR camera, like the professional photographers use.

For the last two weeks I have attempted to use this camera, first I used the auto mode just trying to understand how my new toy works,  then last few days I have attempted to use the programmable mode, which means you have to set some of the settings to take a photo. I figured out yesterday and today that I have no idea what I am doing,  managed to take a few photos that look decent(at least decent to me).  So now I’m off to find an online basic photography class.  I really need help,” what the heck is aperture and shutter speed anyways?”   I thought I kinda new what I was doing but I am humble enough to admit I don’t have a clue.

So now I will share a few of my beginner photos with my brand new toy.  I promise to keep practicing.

My Maggie

My only geese

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February 23, 2013 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

try (to make an attempt)


excitement of dreams to come soon

excitement to try, even if…

even if it turns out not entirely right

oh the excitement to try



February 7, 2013 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

A year without a chicken?


Well it has begun, a whole new year.

I have been down for the last few weeks, I thought well maybe it was due to the new year beginning and just feeling sad about life but the little light bulb in my head went off and I realized why I have been feeling so blue.

I miss my chickens.  One week before Christmas this past year some little critter found a way into my chicken coop and managed to kill all my chickens, my guinea and my duck.  Yes, I am making a sad face right now!   I really enjoyed taking care of our little farm animals.   We had been raising these chickens for over three years, it’s funny how you develop a bond and how a routine is formed when you are raising animals.

I do enjoy where I live and I do enjoy seeing all the wildlife that lives around me but if I would have caught that critter in the act it would have not ended well for him or her.  This is part of the price you pay when you live out of the city, there are risks but I would not trade it for anything.  I do love living with wildlife around me for they bring me joy.  I love raising chickens and other little farm animals for they bring me joy also.  So now I will wait to see if we can repair or build a new home to raise chickens in again.

To a new year and new beginnings.


January 9, 2013 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a Comment



up from depths they will climb

angry from words no one should have spoken

reaching above the hate, the looks

fighting to become one

one to be respected

one to honored

one to be valued

up from the depths

alone in the climb

never alone in the fight


December 27, 2012 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a Comment



Families can be broken, lost and worn down.  Families of two to forty two need love no matter what.  Families come in all colors,

genders and demographics, hair color of green, wearing black, hair color of gold with many tattoo’s, noses pierced, hair gelled perfectly in place,

wearing pearls and lace, love of different race or gender.  Lost with many not standing alone is how some feel.

Families must show love and grace to heal wounds taught by others about how to hate.  Families should ignore others words and make each

other strong to stand down belittlement to stand mighty against strong glares.  For families of two to forty two

will heal and survive to smile for eternity.


December 19, 2012 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a Comment




Silently the sky falls beneath

quietly wind sweeps tears

falling again and again

into caverns of depth

waking slowly

opening eyes slightly

for new morning light

as day must begin




December 18, 2012 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

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